I had another engaging chat with a friend last night, I can say I enjoyed it, he/she shared a problem that bothered me though, it made me realize some things, especially how people can be so mean and judgmental, it made me ponder on how "chismis" really affects the person being talked about. Sometimes its damning, and just too hurtful for us to even realize that we've done something so wrong, we don't always know it, but we often destroy some part of their humanity, dignity, and character. I wished I could've done something for my friend, cause I saw how much this affected my friend.

I, myself is guilty from being judgmental, but sometimes some hear-says are too much, although yeah, I've said my share of criticism and bad-mouthed even a few person, I just hope we can limit this. We can't tell their personalities from what other people say, and reserve judgement when we get to know them a little better, maybe then you'll see how great that person is, how special he/she really is, maybe if you took the time, you might find, a little pot of gold at the end of that rainbow.

Being a christian, I think, this is one that really needs a big change in my life, because I can only count so many times where, I decided not to get to know the person better at first, and ended up almost missing the greatest person, friend, colleague, mentor I could ever find.

Although we really can't eliminate this, we could try and lessen it.

The decision we make will never only affect us, its like a pebble, dropped into a pond, the ripples go far and wide. Our decision will always bear pain and suffering, we just don't know who will be affected by it. This does not mean though that martyrdom will always make the right choice, we may choose what WE think is better for the situation, but do you actually know it is what's better for them? Who are we, to decide that leaving is the right thing to do? Who are we, to impose that this will be for the better? We are after all, human, prone to mistakes, no matter how much we consider all the facts, the people involved and the situation we are in. Our choice will always hurt someone, it will always cause pain, either to us, or to them.

We will never make the right choice, because there is no such thing as the right choice. We can only have a better option. We can never guarantee happiness, so the only question remaining is, why rush things? Can't we just stop, take a moment, and take in what we have right now? Why must an answer be necessary as for moment, when, we can just enjoy the present? Why run to the garden, when you can walk slowly while enjoying the fragrance of the roses? We may have gotten an answer, it may have been the better option, it may have been the worst, but one thing is for sure, it will hurt

samson and delilah part 2

again, my thought in this parable is not yet finish..

Samson was humbled and he realized what he did. He prayed to God and asked for forgiveness. God answered his prayers and again, his strength came back. He died in the end with his enemies. Yes we are like Samson who is blinded by material things or temptations in life. But we have to learn the lesson in this story. We have to learn how to get up when we fall. We have to face our failures in reality and seek God’s forgiveness. God showed in this story that it is never too late to be humble and turn our heart to Him. We might think that Samson wasted his life because he let Delilah take over his life. Moreover, in the end, he died with his enemies. Samson’s life is still worth it because he died still having his faith to God and he sacrificed his life for God. He died finishing his mission to God and he fulfilled God assigned task for Him. We must not give up on whatever failures we face. Instead we should act like Samson. Whatever we face, we must trust in our Lord and he will never turn his back on us. As we can see in this parable, God never leaved Samson. God let him fall and He helped him to rise up. We don’t know how our lives will end or when it will end. But we have to remember that God will look for our faith in Him when we meet him face to face. Do we put out faith in Him or are we going to turn our back when we meet Him?

samson and delilah

my group mates in tredtri played the parable "Samson and Delilah". after discussing this story, i realized a lot of things.

Like Samson, we have our own trials similar to Samson’s life. There is a point in Samson’s life where he turned his back to God and fall into the temptation who is Delilah. He fell in love with Delilah and gave up everything even his promise to God that he won’t let other people know where his strength does come from. Delilah corrupted Samson’s faith to God. There are times that we also betray God and there are conflicts in our lives. We face a lot of trials and sometimes, these trials are more cruel than what Samson faced. Our loyalty to God is sometimes put into test and being humans, we also betray Him like what Samson did. We face a lot of Delilah in our life that might also corrupt our faith to our God, but the question falls on us. Are we going to be weak and let the temptation rule us? Or are we going put our faith in God’s hand and let Him drive away the temptation that we face.

not yet done.. might continue this tomorrow.. haha

payatas children

a hundred lives but one future of these children in front of my eyes. it was raining then but every one of them seemed to be excited. all i can see are smiles on their faces. so i ask myself, should i pity them? or should they pity me? for i have all the things i want, all the things i need, a smile like theirs but not a sign of happiness as it seen in their eyes-genuine.

i took photo at a time. i paced myself trying to drink in the status they are in. my photos captured their smiles but hidden are their ever elusive emotions.

transaparent

transparent is one word which i can portray what i am. i never hide my feelings to other people. it is hard for me to conceal if am angry, jealous, irritated, shy, and any possible emotions that a mortal person can feel. i can honestly say that i can be rude at times but i would rather not to be a hypocrite to those people who i don't like. these is one of my characteristics that i am not proud of because people might think that i am impolite.

my tresuares

an introvert person i am but i never reserve myself fro people who need me. some people are afriad of me because i look snobbish and stern. however, people who knew me well would say that i am sweet and caring. these are some of my atitudes that i call "treasures". :)

hey i'm tough!

a lady who never turns down a challenge. that's how i would describe myself. life is never easy for me but courageously i faces trials with my full armor. i was part of the girl's basketball team in high school and i admit i never deserve the star-player-who-is-the-MVP role. but through determination, i equipped myself to be a capable and competitive player and as well as a team captain. this is one example in my life which i could say that i never said "i quit" and yeah! i'm tough!

a...car?

my dad is going to buy me and my older sister a car. i really love to have a car on my own (i have to share it this time but that's ok) and i think it is really cool. i'm so excited! i can go wherever i want. it is much convenient rather then commuting every where i go. i can even go wherever i like (but i need to know where it is because i don't have a sense of direction! haha) but, my dad's going to buy us an old car. not a second hand but an old model car. ok i'm being childish. why i feel half excited half disaapointed? maybe that's enough for now since i'm not that good at driving. i might destroy a brand new car. haha..

i'm a fan!

Beyonce is a well-known singer and actress. i'm a BIG fan of her and i don't only love her songs but also the way she performs on stage. very entertaining! one of her songs that i love is "diva". i love this song because of the lyrics the fast beat of the song. also, just the line i'm a Diva, i'm a hustla (or hustler) strongly affected me. i imagined myself saying "hey! i'm strong! no one can bring me down because i'm a fighter." this song lightens my mood everytime i listen to it.

Via..my mom!

Via is a mother of four who started to bake birthday cakes when she had her children. At first, she only bakes for her family and friends. Baking became her past time until people started to look for her cakes and pastries. Eventually, she took baking lessons and practiced at home to learn more about baking. Her recipe grew and she had many more cakes and pastries to offer. Via planned to open her own bake shop but decided to stay at home and just let the people contact her and order. She usually has one to two helpers who help her out when she accepts order. She also accepts for events like birthday, baptismal, Christmas, and etc.

Besides from her yummy cakes and pastries, she also offers that has something to do with cooking. Like baking, she loves to cook pasta and salad which she started to offer to her customers eventually. hey wait! this is my mom! :))

mom's best seller

my mom loves to bake. one of my favorites is yummy Revel Bar. it is like an energy bar because it has oatmeal and chocolate together. it is chewy especially if you put it in refrigerator. many people had ordered this revel bar and it is one of her best seller. =)

allowance

Every 1st day of the week my father gives me my allowance. I have the chance to hang out, shop, and do lot of things that has to deal with money. Without my allowance I won’t be able to do all this stuff. But what’s disappointing is that my allowance was spent before the week ends. That’s why now,I can’t do all the stuff I want to do. I feel bored at school and the routine of going to school everyday and go home immediately is very tiresome. i can't even hang out with my friends. O course, I have to wait for Monday again. But sometimes, fortunately, my mother shows her love to me. sometimes, she gives me extra money. Again, I would easily spend it all. I don’t know why. Maybe because I’m just the type of person who doesn’t know how to handle my money. gag!

12@12

i'm excited for oyr major concert this year. innersoul will have its major concert on November 13, 2009. we will present the 12 singers of innersoul at our 12th year. another challenge for me as stage monager of our group and also, sir Brad said that i will be the assistant director for this show. (wow!) exciting for me but i can feel a little bit of pressure. other people might expect a lot from me and i don't what that feeling. although it is flattering when people sets a high standard on you, but i don't like the feeling. i don't like to fail people's expectation of me that's why i don't what them to set a stabdard for me. the trust that our director gave me is too big that i am questioning myself if a can do it. also, the responsibility will again hunt me.

hoping that this show will be successful, i will give all i can for this group. though i'm not giving my whole effort roght now. i know when a production is comming, a production head will appear (haha, its me!)

love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 1 Corinthians 13: 4

love teach us to be patient. no matter how angry you are, you will still keep on understanding your love ones. this love doesn't pertain to anyone. this could be your family, friends, lover. love is also kind. you will always care so someone you love. you would always want to protect your love one and he is like a new born baby.. you want to keep your eyes on him everyday. yet, you are willing to show him off to everyone without jealousy. you are not afraid that he will leave you. it is not proud. it does not boast. you are quiet in keeping your eyes on him. the emotion of love is inside you, you never brag it to anyone.

wants to learn

i want to learn photoshop. i want to learn how to do make up in photoshop. but i couldn't. too lazy to learn.

not a good start

what a term to start my school year. i think that i'm already starting to fail my majors again (oh nooo).... okay it almost half of the term and i'm already worrying about my grades. i don't feel like this is a good start to start my school year. my major subjects are MAJOR. they are too demanding and i feell like i want to burst. plus, i'm too lazy this term. i don't know why but it seems like student mode is not into me this term. i tried to study..many times.. but why i keep on failing. i feel that my effort is not enough.

i promise myself to exert all efforts that i could give. i had failed one major subject last year and i don't want to have the same situation. i don;t plan on wasting my parents' money and waste my time. ok, i feel like i'm too old and i'm still studying. i should be working! ugh.. i should not spend anytime on whining..there's nothing that i could do but to.. study.

tiring

i feel tired. nowadays i find myself so stress because of school. there are times that i don't what to work anymore. i only sleep the whole day and ended up wasting my time. also, i feel like i want to stop the time, just to take a moment of stillness. nothing is happening, only me and my world. i want to have peace and quiet. i feel like everything that's happening in my life right now is in fuzz. all in a hurry. too many deadlines. too many responsibilities. i sometimes imagine life is like an ipod. you can play it anytime you want. if you feel that you are tired and you are getting weak, you can always find time to charge. you can turn it off the whole day if you don't want to listen to any music. but no. life will never be that way. we are always work like hell and if you stop, you will be left behind.

waiting..

ok i hate facebook. but! i do play some of the games in their application :)) i'm playing restaurant city now. and damn this connection i can't connect right now. restaurant city is having your own restaurant and you can design it whatever you want. i want to earn a lot of money there and upgrade fast!.. so that my restaurant will be as nice as my friends are. i want to have those accessories that you can buy for your restaurant. i'm getting impatient in earning because all of the merchandize there are too expensive!

i stopped playing this game but one of my friends influenced me to play again..that's why i'm back and my restaurant will be the biggest in town! wait and see! :))

argh! still waiting for my restaurant city to load :(

hoping this will be over.SOON!

i hate being a woman. rar! hate having this monthly period and worst of all having PMS. (pre menstruation syndrome). i get easily irritated and i get angry even to non sense things. wish that this will be over and i'll be myself again. :( i also can't concentrate on my work at school and other stuff that i have to accomplish. i feel tired always and all i want to do is to sleep. sleep and sleep and sleep... my work is now piled up because of this laziness. another sign when a woman will have her period is that she's getting fat. and i DO! i hate it! when will this be over? i need to exert a lot of effort so that i can focus on the things that i need to accomplish.

bad thing is..even if it is over for this month. i will always encounter this feeling over and over again. month after month. i wonder why i still don't get the hang of it. i already hurt many people's feeling because of this stupid PMS. :(

facebook vs. multiply

people are now getting crazy over social networking. what is social networking? it function like an online community of internet users. Once you are granted access to a social networking website you can begin to socialize. This socialization may include reading the profile ages of other members and possibly even contacting them. some of them is facebook, multiply, friendster, myspace, and etc.

i personally have three accounts. facebook, multiply, and friendster. among these accounts, many people are into facebook and multiply.my friends are addicted to facebook because of the games that the site offers. i myself play some of those games and it is fun. but i like multiply against facebook. for me, multiply is more friendly user and you can personalize your site. unlike facebook, there is too much tabs in the site. also, there's too many advertisement that it flood your account. what i like more in multiply is that the pictures that you upload has greater quality than in facebook. the resolution is higher in multiply that's why you can enjoy more in looking at you friends' picture or you own pictures.

and now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. but the greatest of these is love. 1 Corinthians 13: 13

Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. now i know in part; the i shall know fully, even as i am fully known. 1 Corinthians 13: 12

when i was a child, i talked like a child, i thought like a child, i reasoned like a child. when i became a man, i put childish ways behind me. 1 Corinthians 13: 11

but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 1 Corinthians 13: 10

i think we just have to accept the person we love. everyone is not perfect. even the richest person is not happy. even the most intelligent person is not satisfied. we just have to remember that God loves us no matter who we are. that's we also have to love one another.

For we know in part, and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 1 Corinthians 13: 9

love never fails, but where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 1 Corinthians 13: 8

it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 1 Corinthians 13 : 7

Love is too demanding that it asks us to do all the impossible things in life. it is not easy to trust nor to hope always, and especially to perseveres when you're in hurt. yet, true love is described by God and i believe no one can do it. or maybe do it FOR ME. but i know someone did the most noble thing for me. Jesus' love is so great that i don't deserve to be forgiven from all of my sin. yet, He died on the cross to save me. through Jesus' example, i now, have someone to look up to. i have someone whom i can see how great love is. because of that, i can share my love to other people and let them feel what Jesus did for me. and for them.

love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth 1 Corinthians 13: 6

love should be pure, there should be no any trace of evil. we should perform all things that is pleasing in God's eyes. this emotion is a gift from our master, and no one else. all we have to do is to obey His will and do things that will make Him proud.

it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs 1 Corinthians 13: 5

love never looks for own happiness. it always seeks the goodness of all. if you love someone, you are patient in understanding him. you accept his mistakes and you are not angered by that easily. not at all.

this verse keeps on reminding me that love is not selfish. i should always give and don't expect anything in return. also, love leaves everything behind. what is important is the present and the future coz past will do no good. it will just hunt your memories and there's no escape.

if i give all i possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, i gain nothing. 1 Corinthians 13: 3

life is useless even if you think that you had given up everything in your life. even if you think that you'll donate all your possession to the poor, even if you surrender you life to your career, family, friends, etc... you earn nothing. you will still not be content in your life and you will always look for things that will make you happy.

if i have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if i have a faith that can move mountains, but not have love, i am nothing. 1 Corinthians 13:2

the verse's message says that all the skills in the world is irrelevant if you don't have love, if you don't know how to love. also, no matter how intelligent you are, yet you don't know how to love, it is useless. loving people is the most important thing in this world. even if you have all the things that you want in your life, you won't be happy. happiness can be find if you know how to love others and yourself. even if you are faithful to your master, but you don't know how to love him/her, you are still nothing.

as i reflect on this verse, i felt that i need to spend time on thinking whether if i know how to love. of course i want to be a successful person. i want to have all the goodness in life, but i need to love myself and others. that is when i can find happiness in life. not on luxuries , not on success , not on fame..

if i speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, i am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 1 Corinthians 13:1

for me, this verse says that no matter how good you are in speaking to a lot of people, it is useless if you don't know how to love. it is still important to built relationships that will last. people should also have love in themselves because this love will reflect to other people. people who don't know how to love is like a hypocrite. they are just hanging out with people because they need to. this verse reminds me that even if a have few friends, it doesn't matter. i don't need to have a lot of barkadas, just to say i am friendly. what is important is that i treasure the people that i have right now in my life. i can spread love that i have right now in my life.

starbucks barista!

one of my wildest/weirdest/craziest dream is to work as a barista at starbucks. funny how i really wanted to work there because helllloooo i'm studying communication. some people might thought that i'm just wasting my time because i', taking up a degree and all i wanted to be is a BARISTA! i really wanted to pursue the corporate world (which is very related to my course! haha) but, before going to that part of "my world", i just want to work for a while in starbucks. i used to think that it would only be my part-time job while i'm studying. but since that majors that i'm taking is too demanding, i can't afford to commit in working part time. why do i love working in starbucks? well i really love hanging out there and i'm a coffee addict. i love the environment there and i'd like to learn how to serve the coffee there.

hi swine

classes are suspended and it is funny. really! i think all the panics are useless because of this flu that's been invading our country. swine flu has been spreading wildly nowadays and i think there's no way to stop it. hello! i think all the germs are having fun here in our dirty country. i think they find where they truly belong. haha. it keeps me wondering how deadly is this? yes i know many have been contaminated by A(H1N1) but yet.. it is not as deadly like dengue. i think people here in our country should be more aware of dengue. dengue comes from mosquitos and we don't know where they are. mosquitos might be just in your sink or backyard and yet we are all panicking from swine flu. it is good to be alert and be cautious from swine flu, but hey... there's more to that. i am really disappointed to our media nowadays. aren't they keep on disturbing the people from all the numbers of victims that they are publicizing? all i know, all of this will stop. someday. and hopefully, people would get to know more of this A(H1N1). how could they be contaminated or what. if it is really alarming than other sickness that we have right now. i'm not saying that i know all about these things, but i'm just saying what's my opinion regarding this.

If I were the Prime Minister, I might have done the same thing. I would talk to the Queen and tell her that she needs to appear to the public. How the Royal Family sees the death of Princess Diana doesn’t matter at the moment. The republic started to doubt the monarchy and the Queen has to bounce back. I think what the Prime Minister did was reasonable.

the last activity was about "problem-solving with Dr. Worry". we were supposed to imagine that we are DR. worry and we have to give advice to the young people's magazine. the first advice that i gave is to doubting Dom. his problem is that he is doubting about himself. the best outcome that i was able think is that he should think better of himself. he will be able to achieve the best outcome if he will always trust himself and nurture his self-confidence. think that he is strong, capable, and self-reliant. in case that things didn't work out and they loose the debate, he shouldn't blame himself. instead be proud because he was still part of the debating team. all he should to is practice more and the next battle, they try again their best. the next person is confused Connie. her problem is that she is torn between convincing her friends and to the quality output of their thesis. how will she deal the problem without compromising the friendship. the best out come is to take an action. she should figure out what needs to be done, make a plan out to do it, and then take action. she can achieve this if she decides on what is more important to her, the thesis or the friendship. after the decision making process, she can plan on how will she do the action. if her later on she found out that her decision was wrong, she don't have to dwell on it. instead, make the most out of her decision and work hard on it.

the next activity that we had was about how resilient am i. we first had a "game" which was "practice makes perfect". in this "game", i found out that it is important to always have focus to our work. even though we are under pressure or no matter how hard the situation may be, we still need to disregard the things that are disturbing us. also, i learned that we shouldn't panic if the situation that we are about to face seems hard. we have to face the challenge and the next time we encounter the same scenario, we will be able to face it with confidence. i believe and happy to say that i am resilient enough. from that personality test that we answered, i was able checked 6/12 statements that indicate how resilient i am.

as our whole class was divided into two groups, my had our first meeting last thursday. we had a short activity which is like "getting to know" or ice breaker game. there were strips of paper given to us and the first one is about ourself. luckily i picked a strip of paper that was easy. i only had to say my name, my parents' name, and their occupation. the second paper was about our personal insights of the word that was written on the strip of paper. unlike the first one, i had a hard time thinking of what to say about a 'father'. i explain to the class that i don't know what to say about it because i didn't grow up with a dad. yet, i admired my father because he had not forgotten his responsibility to provide our financial aids. for example, i am still studying in an excellent university which everyone knows that has a high tuition fee. the second ice breaker that we had, we were group into three and talked about our stressors and how do we overcome them. this experience was nice because i was able to talked with two ladies who aren't my friends. i was able to met them first time and we had a fruitful discussion about our stressors. we were also able to share how we released our stress. this activity was very helpful to the class to somehow get to know one another, since we came from different colleges.

her future..

Three girls, Holly; Kendra; and Bridget, live together with Hugh Hefner in a mansion. the Girls of The Playboy Mansion are young, blonde, sexy, beautiful, yet too ambitious. These girls are ready to be in front of the camera and live with this old man. They play and party and just that. Yes, one thing that these girls do is play. For them, wearing two piece bikinis (in two super tiny pieces) and pose in front of the camera is just playing. Being watched by the world is someone who’s popular, no matter what they see on you. These girls are ridiculous. How could they take kissing an old man (very very old man) and be treated like a porn star. I also pity the family of these three women because if I were the parents of these women, I would be shameful. I could not accept the fact that my daughter is on TV, might have sex with this dirty old man and the whole world might be watching. As a mother looking at my daughter being treated that low is very degrading. It is also funny why blonde girl are called dumb. They are beautiful. But why are they using this beauty in such a way? Why are they allowing people to do that to them? Maybe they are willing,.. willing for popularity? For wealth? This reality show is distorting the way a woman should be respected.

I was disturbed when I flicked on the channel of our television. I saw this program and I tried to watch. I saw these blonde girls having mall tours. Many people are falling in line to have their signatures and pictures. Men and women, they are all there. But of course men would always have that menacing look in their eyes. When a young girl, around 5 years old, came out of the line to have her turn for the picture and signature taking, I was so shocked. How does she know about these blonde girls? Is she allowed to watch the ‘girls of the playboy mansion’? I wonder how that young girl would look on herself after 10 years. How will she respect herself if she sees these girls act that way, treated that way..Scary..

date my mom

Dating is normal. All ages as long as the person is single, though some people who has a relationship still goes into dating. This show is a reality show about a guy who wants to date a lady. Before he do so, he has to choose from three women AND this women is the mother of the ladies whom they will have a date with. There will have a three set of dates. Every date is a different mom. Every mother has to make an impression for her daughter so that the guy will choose her daughter to be his date. After the three dates that went through, the guy will make a decision on who he will pick.

This could be an adventurous way of having a blind date. You don’t know who your date is but on the side of the guy, he could somehow see the personality of the girl through the mother. For the girl’s part? She could bribe her mother to be good, behave and talk about all the good things about her. Also, the mother could see the character of the guy through the set up date that they have. On the other hand, this show is funny because you could see the mothers ready to do anything in their date. She can dance even though she can’t. She can do boxing even if her body is aching. She can do bungee jumping though her heart wants to pop out from her lungs. Although those mothers look like they are selling their daughter for a date with this guy, I find this mothers so cool. They are willing to meet a new guy, do an activity that they might have no idea what it is, just to make their daughter happy. It is just shameful if your daughter was not chosen. But still they are still into this game.

manhattan's elite

this TV series 'gossip girl' and THE ONLY series that i ever watch. tv series usually bores me. but this is different i could say. I am very hooked up in this show that’s why I downloaded all the episodes in season2. I started watching this when I borrowed a dvd from my friend which is a compilation of season 1. if you’re in to fashion. No reason for you not to like this show. All the characters are so well dressed. And I love to put myself into the shoes of the characters and set it into real life. Maybe one of my dreams is to be one of the elites. Yes it’s crazy, but hey! Everyone is free to have big dream right? I love wearing suites, dress, high heels, etc. also, I love to be do all I want to do. Like in the show, they are free to do whatever they want to do. Although they have their parents with them, freedom is much expressed by these people. Knowing that america’s culture is different from ours, it is kinda sad that we are different from them.

Frankly, this show really has bad values that are really dangerous to the viewers who are so hooked up to what they are watching. Since this series shows a lot of liberation, as teenage viewers, their belief on what is right might be destroyed. For example, having sex during high school is an amplification of how free they are. This might be taken as an ‘okay’ scenario by the young ones and sadly, they might apply this in their lives. Also, there are lots of scandalous things that is happening in this tv show. Teenagers post gossip on a website and this gossip spreads to everyone. This is hazardous to the people because this shows that it is a norm to post gossip and tell everyone what is happening to someone’s life. Even if it’s not true. I know that all shows that we see on tv present values like in ‘gossip girl”. This show would like to illustrate, love, friendship, relationship, priorities, loyalty. But all show has its down side. We just have to be cautious to what we see and hear. Beware while watching.

finding your true love?

more people are getting into reality shows. one of the is looking for your lifetime partner, through a television show. a Bachelor would look for his bride-to-be and lots of women are willing to be part of this craziness. i honestly watch this show. but i don't know why this reality show draws my attention. whenever i flip through the channels and saw an episode of the show, i would stop and watch..and the next thing i would do is to criticize the show. everyone would like to have a husband/wife in the future ( or at least majority of human beings would like to). but is it really true to fall in love, while cameras are following you? while the whole world are watching you? i can't see what is sweet in what they are doing. the fact that in one series, more or less 20 women compete for one bachelor. every episode, they are eliminated until the last one stands. and the guy will propose for the girl. i ask myself whether falling in love is a competition like the reality show is presenting to the public. aren't they destroying the true perspective of 'love'? i also pity the women who are part of this what i so-called 'game'. although they are foolish because they joined in, but maybe before they joined, they thought this as a literal game. maybe they thought that this is just a game which the prettiest, sexiest women will win. they might not know that they are involving their feelings to this 'game'. image yourself having a sex with the bachelor then the next day, another girl will have the same situation that you thought special. it is like you are sharing a cupcake to every girl there. and the sad part is.. you don't know what the true feelings of the bachelor. if he say 'i love you' or 'i am falling in love with you', is he also saying it to two or more girls in the show?

spending time on eating

sweat pouring down my face, *pant pant*..couldn't breathe.. my muscle is aching.. few more steps..

a routine that i've missed so much when i was in high school. thrice a week i have my basketball training. i miss the hard trainings that we had especially when a league is coming. but what i miss the most? my physically fit body. :( during those times, no matter how many i ate, it is alright because it will all be burned. rice, chocolates, chips, all the sinful food that anyone could take..i could eat them without hesitation back then. i dare to eat them because during practices, i knew that it is worth eatiiing.. there's really big difference now. even though i don't eat.. i can feel that i am getting fat. ok exaggerating. how can a person get fat if he/she is NOT eating anything. blaaa.. what i mean is that even if i eat everything in small amout, i feel that i am committing a crime. haha.. paranoid? it is just so fun to eat without thinking of your weight and anything. during my free time, all think is food. (well, sometimes..)

i have to nag..again! i have to nag, i have to nag, i have to naaaag! why? because i feel that it is unfair that some people don't get fat while me? i eat only few, yet tadaaaa!

all around internet

internet is very common to all the people around the world. it is used by everyone, such as corporate workers, teachers, students, designers, businessmen, practitioners, etc. internet makes our life more convenient and it conserves time a lot. frequently, we go to our computer, opens it and connect to the available internet connection there is. as easy as it is, we type into the search engine that we wold like to seek. immediately, there are lots information that we could access. searching on the internet is such that trouble-free unlike on searching on the library. we don't have to open a lot of books in order to gather the information that we need. having the internet is no hassle at all. browsing the internet is very helpful to students because it could enhance their knowledge and this could also help them in their assignments. also, career people could benefit to the use of internet. these people could update themselves to the new trends or the news through the internet. besides from searching, we could also upload pictures, videos, audios, etc. through this medium. we could reach everyone around the world and share our thoughts, ideas, and the things that we worked on. on the other hand, we could download stuff through the internet. the power of internet doesn't stop there. there's online shopping which we could have transactions things using the internet. we could order/deliver whether locally or internationally. also, there are online classes which some of the universities practice. in case that the professor couldn't meet his/her class, he/she could still facilitate a discussion/lecture. there's also online enrollment which is a lot convenient for the students because they don't have to fall in line in order to register their name to the class/classes that they will attend for the next school year. by the internet, people could also communicate by using chat, e-mails, etc. this is a way we could contact people in case we don't have a telephone or cellphone. social networking nowadays is very popular. facebook, multiply, friendster, and twitter are just some of the social network that people use in order to meet other colleagues. this is also a way where we can update ourselves on what is happening to our friends that we seldom talk to.

internet really has a lot of advantages and it can aid us to our needs. BUT we must not take for granted the down side of it. many young teenagers who are very much engage to online games, which have bad affects on their academic grades. sometimes, even behaviors are destroyed. also, since internet is accessible to all, there's no privacy. people could download everything which is unacceptable. we should remember that internet could help us, or entertain us. we are so lucky that in our generation, people get to invent this thing. it is our own liability to use it properly and the responsibility is on our fingers.

they could sing!

there is a lot of talent in this world. it comes in different variety, forms, etc. one talent that i witnessed a lot lately is singing. yes, we can turn on the television set at our homes and see people who sing. they certainly catch the attention of the viewers. but me? honestly, i can't sing even just a line that is in the right tune. BUT i'm proud to say that i am involved to a group who can sing their heart out and inspire the audience. maybe that's the reason why i think they are awesome. these people ARE awesome. singing is their passion. they live by facing the crowd, holding their mics, and express the form of art that they know. i believe in this people. and i can see that they could entertain the people who watch the the ones we see on TV.

like i said, singing is a form of art, and this art will never die not unless people will stop singing. moreover, no one can put MY group down because they are here for a purpose. they are here to be up on the stage and sing. what am i here for? to warn those people who put them down. be prepared guys. they will prove you all wrong. as long as these people has the passion, they won't let put this group into failure. i know you are looking forward for the time that we will be in the pit. be ready, because you might looking down long enough and you might not see that we are already up in there reaching the sky. we don't care how good you are, how talented you are (if that's really the case) but one thing you could do is.. step back. let us do our thing. and swallow all your comments to yourself because we don't need it. we need criticism that will help us improve, not that will make us loose our control and be completely annoyed.

gossip gossip gossip

one of the Filipinos past time is gossip. the famous entertaining gossip that is evident nowadays is showbiz. we love to listen to the lives of the celebrities and it intrigues the people what is happening to them. the more scandalous the issue is, the more people gets excite. also, more or less people with in a group, or simply say a 'barkada' has gossips. sadly, many people are entertained by this past time. others would even like to join in to the fire. some would stay quiet but their ears are very much attentive. i couldn't say if this habitual activity is good or bad..i don't even know why people get addicted in chit-chats. but my concern is the party which is being talked about. i could describe how it feels because i was a victim once, twice.. don't get me wrong, i am also part of the 'gossip group' sometimes. (haha)


it just occurred to me while I'm writing this, rumors that is not true is no justice at all. because of this people who talks about nonsense, they can destroy the reputation of the victim. and it is heartbreaking to see that other people wouldn't even spend just a little time knowing what is the truth. nor wouldn't they give a damn on what is the feeling of the victim. i believe that we can't please everybody and we can't make everybody believe in us. but,.. maybe.. the least we could do is to let the people know what we have, what we're great of, what we can do, what we can share, what we believe in.. then, they judge. let them see it first hand. not because of gossip.

entertainment through shopping

people go to malls because they have something to buy. others would just stroll around to waste time. people have different reasons why they go to the malls. some would go to malls beacuse it is relaxing to walk around and look for things that they might want. others are just oblige to go becuase they need to buy something important. exercise is also one reason why people go to these places. there are more rationale to this, but.. have you ever felt the excitement to go to ashppin center, just because you are craving to buy something. AND! this thing is not that important to you..well i just experienced it today. i went to Alabang Town Center just to buy my sanuk. i really wanted to buy this footwear ever since and yeees! finally i have one pair today. it was funny because i went to ATC because of sale. but i only got 10%. the discount that i had was even cheaper than my fare. (i had my boyfriend with me, which makes the fare x2..)the rain today is also wild! it took us almost one hour to look for a cab.

going to the mall because of a reason like mine if acceptable. (i think! haha) but.. with this kind of weather.. it's a big NO. it was really an unpractical experience that i had this day.. on the other hand.. i am happy because i have my sanuk! haha! and bonding moments with my boyfriend! :D

entertainment through sports

Even girls play and watch basketball, so do i. I love to watch PBA,WPBL,UAAP,NCAA and especially NBA(yeah!). I only watch NBA if both of the team have player to watch like lebron(my idol),Kobe,Wade,etc. It is boring when there’s no show timer like the three that I mentioned. My favorite team was Cleveland Cavaliers. When I’m watching this team it makes me crazy. I cheer like I’m on the exact venue where the game is. I get up on my sit when my team makes a basket, I raise my hands when they made a three points, tapping the one who sits with me(no matter who she/he is) when there’s do a jam. That’s me when watching basketball. It seems that I’m not a lady. My older brother always watches with me and even teased me when I did some crazy stuff. There were many players who step up. Coaches and players are also very emotional, that usually leads to technical fouls. Even the crowd gets emotional but they can express their feelings anyway they want to. Also, the day after the game, you would see articles on the newspapers talking about the competition. Besides from that, schedules are being flashed on TV screens so that viewers like me can know more about the upcoming games. I could say that NBA has an really affect on people’s lives, routine, values, and etc.

Now, playoff are just over. Teams were now eliminated. Therefore, more intense physical game, depression, and celebrations will take place. After beating Detriot and Atlanta with 4-0 in a Best-of-7 series, sadly my favorite team didn’t make it through the Finals. They lost to Orlando Magic winning only two games in a Best-of-series game. I’ve watched almost all their games and it was a good series for both of the team. They always showcase an entertaining game that would make the viewers’ heart pounds like hell.