I had another engaging chat with a friend last night, I can say I enjoyed it, he/she shared a problem that bothered me though, it made me realize some things, especially how people can be so mean and judgmental, it made me ponder on how "chismis" really affects the person being talked about. Sometimes its damning, and just too hurtful for us to even realize that we've done something so wrong, we don't always know it, but we often destroy some part of their humanity, dignity, and character. I wished I could've done something for my friend, cause I saw how much this affected my friend.

I, myself is guilty from being judgmental, but sometimes some hear-says are too much, although yeah, I've said my share of criticism and bad-mouthed even a few person, I just hope we can limit this. We can't tell their personalities from what other people say, and reserve judgement when we get to know them a little better, maybe then you'll see how great that person is, how special he/she really is, maybe if you took the time, you might find, a little pot of gold at the end of that rainbow.

Being a christian, I think, this is one that really needs a big change in my life, because I can only count so many times where, I decided not to get to know the person better at first, and ended up almost missing the greatest person, friend, colleague, mentor I could ever find.

Although we really can't eliminate this, we could try and lessen it.

The decision we make will never only affect us, its like a pebble, dropped into a pond, the ripples go far and wide. Our decision will always bear pain and suffering, we just don't know who will be affected by it. This does not mean though that martyrdom will always make the right choice, we may choose what WE think is better for the situation, but do you actually know it is what's better for them? Who are we, to decide that leaving is the right thing to do? Who are we, to impose that this will be for the better? We are after all, human, prone to mistakes, no matter how much we consider all the facts, the people involved and the situation we are in. Our choice will always hurt someone, it will always cause pain, either to us, or to them.

We will never make the right choice, because there is no such thing as the right choice. We can only have a better option. We can never guarantee happiness, so the only question remaining is, why rush things? Can't we just stop, take a moment, and take in what we have right now? Why must an answer be necessary as for moment, when, we can just enjoy the present? Why run to the garden, when you can walk slowly while enjoying the fragrance of the roses? We may have gotten an answer, it may have been the better option, it may have been the worst, but one thing is for sure, it will hurt

samson and delilah part 2

again, my thought in this parable is not yet finish..

Samson was humbled and he realized what he did. He prayed to God and asked for forgiveness. God answered his prayers and again, his strength came back. He died in the end with his enemies. Yes we are like Samson who is blinded by material things or temptations in life. But we have to learn the lesson in this story. We have to learn how to get up when we fall. We have to face our failures in reality and seek God’s forgiveness. God showed in this story that it is never too late to be humble and turn our heart to Him. We might think that Samson wasted his life because he let Delilah take over his life. Moreover, in the end, he died with his enemies. Samson’s life is still worth it because he died still having his faith to God and he sacrificed his life for God. He died finishing his mission to God and he fulfilled God assigned task for Him. We must not give up on whatever failures we face. Instead we should act like Samson. Whatever we face, we must trust in our Lord and he will never turn his back on us. As we can see in this parable, God never leaved Samson. God let him fall and He helped him to rise up. We don’t know how our lives will end or when it will end. But we have to remember that God will look for our faith in Him when we meet him face to face. Do we put out faith in Him or are we going to turn our back when we meet Him?

samson and delilah

my group mates in tredtri played the parable "Samson and Delilah". after discussing this story, i realized a lot of things.

Like Samson, we have our own trials similar to Samson’s life. There is a point in Samson’s life where he turned his back to God and fall into the temptation who is Delilah. He fell in love with Delilah and gave up everything even his promise to God that he won’t let other people know where his strength does come from. Delilah corrupted Samson’s faith to God. There are times that we also betray God and there are conflicts in our lives. We face a lot of trials and sometimes, these trials are more cruel than what Samson faced. Our loyalty to God is sometimes put into test and being humans, we also betray Him like what Samson did. We face a lot of Delilah in our life that might also corrupt our faith to our God, but the question falls on us. Are we going to be weak and let the temptation rule us? Or are we going put our faith in God’s hand and let Him drive away the temptation that we face.

not yet done.. might continue this tomorrow.. haha

payatas children

a hundred lives but one future of these children in front of my eyes. it was raining then but every one of them seemed to be excited. all i can see are smiles on their faces. so i ask myself, should i pity them? or should they pity me? for i have all the things i want, all the things i need, a smile like theirs but not a sign of happiness as it seen in their eyes-genuine.

i took photo at a time. i paced myself trying to drink in the status they are in. my photos captured their smiles but hidden are their ever elusive emotions.

transaparent

transparent is one word which i can portray what i am. i never hide my feelings to other people. it is hard for me to conceal if am angry, jealous, irritated, shy, and any possible emotions that a mortal person can feel. i can honestly say that i can be rude at times but i would rather not to be a hypocrite to those people who i don't like. these is one of my characteristics that i am not proud of because people might think that i am impolite.

my tresuares

an introvert person i am but i never reserve myself fro people who need me. some people are afriad of me because i look snobbish and stern. however, people who knew me well would say that i am sweet and caring. these are some of my atitudes that i call "treasures". :)

hey i'm tough!

a lady who never turns down a challenge. that's how i would describe myself. life is never easy for me but courageously i faces trials with my full armor. i was part of the girl's basketball team in high school and i admit i never deserve the star-player-who-is-the-MVP role. but through determination, i equipped myself to be a capable and competitive player and as well as a team captain. this is one example in my life which i could say that i never said "i quit" and yeah! i'm tough!

a...car?

my dad is going to buy me and my older sister a car. i really love to have a car on my own (i have to share it this time but that's ok) and i think it is really cool. i'm so excited! i can go wherever i want. it is much convenient rather then commuting every where i go. i can even go wherever i like (but i need to know where it is because i don't have a sense of direction! haha) but, my dad's going to buy us an old car. not a second hand but an old model car. ok i'm being childish. why i feel half excited half disaapointed? maybe that's enough for now since i'm not that good at driving. i might destroy a brand new car. haha..

i'm a fan!

Beyonce is a well-known singer and actress. i'm a BIG fan of her and i don't only love her songs but also the way she performs on stage. very entertaining! one of her songs that i love is "diva". i love this song because of the lyrics the fast beat of the song. also, just the line i'm a Diva, i'm a hustla (or hustler) strongly affected me. i imagined myself saying "hey! i'm strong! no one can bring me down because i'm a fighter." this song lightens my mood everytime i listen to it.

Via..my mom!

Via is a mother of four who started to bake birthday cakes when she had her children. At first, she only bakes for her family and friends. Baking became her past time until people started to look for her cakes and pastries. Eventually, she took baking lessons and practiced at home to learn more about baking. Her recipe grew and she had many more cakes and pastries to offer. Via planned to open her own bake shop but decided to stay at home and just let the people contact her and order. She usually has one to two helpers who help her out when she accepts order. She also accepts for events like birthday, baptismal, Christmas, and etc.

Besides from her yummy cakes and pastries, she also offers that has something to do with cooking. Like baking, she loves to cook pasta and salad which she started to offer to her customers eventually. hey wait! this is my mom! :))

mom's best seller

my mom loves to bake. one of my favorites is yummy Revel Bar. it is like an energy bar because it has oatmeal and chocolate together. it is chewy especially if you put it in refrigerator. many people had ordered this revel bar and it is one of her best seller. =)

allowance

Every 1st day of the week my father gives me my allowance. I have the chance to hang out, shop, and do lot of things that has to deal with money. Without my allowance I won’t be able to do all this stuff. But what’s disappointing is that my allowance was spent before the week ends. That’s why now,I can’t do all the stuff I want to do. I feel bored at school and the routine of going to school everyday and go home immediately is very tiresome. i can't even hang out with my friends. O course, I have to wait for Monday again. But sometimes, fortunately, my mother shows her love to me. sometimes, she gives me extra money. Again, I would easily spend it all. I don’t know why. Maybe because I’m just the type of person who doesn’t know how to handle my money. gag!

12@12

i'm excited for oyr major concert this year. innersoul will have its major concert on November 13, 2009. we will present the 12 singers of innersoul at our 12th year. another challenge for me as stage monager of our group and also, sir Brad said that i will be the assistant director for this show. (wow!) exciting for me but i can feel a little bit of pressure. other people might expect a lot from me and i don't what that feeling. although it is flattering when people sets a high standard on you, but i don't like the feeling. i don't like to fail people's expectation of me that's why i don't what them to set a stabdard for me. the trust that our director gave me is too big that i am questioning myself if a can do it. also, the responsibility will again hunt me.

hoping that this show will be successful, i will give all i can for this group. though i'm not giving my whole effort roght now. i know when a production is comming, a production head will appear (haha, its me!)

love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 1 Corinthians 13: 4

love teach us to be patient. no matter how angry you are, you will still keep on understanding your love ones. this love doesn't pertain to anyone. this could be your family, friends, lover. love is also kind. you will always care so someone you love. you would always want to protect your love one and he is like a new born baby.. you want to keep your eyes on him everyday. yet, you are willing to show him off to everyone without jealousy. you are not afraid that he will leave you. it is not proud. it does not boast. you are quiet in keeping your eyes on him. the emotion of love is inside you, you never brag it to anyone.

wants to learn

i want to learn photoshop. i want to learn how to do make up in photoshop. but i couldn't. too lazy to learn.